"I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind"

Interesting. I downloaded the new Alanis CD. Now, I was pretty sick of her since she started with that baba-nana-india-shit. And I didn't like the new song that was on the radio.
I hate it when she writes those huge lines of lyrics and tries to fit them in the melody... with no rhyme, it's not too musical in my opinion.
But she does have some pretty deep lyrics and she hasn't lost those. The one I quoted is from a song called "So Unsexy", which I happened to like a lot! It talks about feeling bad about yourself because of things other people do/say/forget to say to you, and I definitely relate to that.
But some songs make you feel like alanis is back to her roots. Precious Illusions is an example, so simple and with no personality at all. Could be anyone singing that. Real poor for someone who wrote Jagged Little Pill (hey I heard that her producer, Glenn Ballard, was the one who really made that record...).

In a nutshell, I don't love this one, but the lyrics are great and it's way better than the one before.

Download this. Do you like Kyuss? Do you like Cold? Well I think I finally managed to do something nobody ever did in the world!!! Well, maybe not, but still its pretty kewl. hehe.
It's a mix of two songs: Just got Wicked (Cold) and Kyuss (Catamaran). It's pretty short, someone could make a loop with it, I dunno. Feel free. Just credit me.

look ma! I'm running MacOS 7 on my PC!

Didn't go to college again. Heheheh! Dammit, like I tought, everybody's asking me to do stuff.

My priority list for the week:
1) Finish the fixing on the agESPM website (www.agespm.com.br)
2) Work on the Stage Luz & Magia website (www.stageluzemagia.com.br) back-end. That site needs some serious revamping, but at least my uncle doesn't want it... so I only need to make the ASP back-end. Which isn't simple, let me tell you.
3) Buy tickets for the KoRn KonCeRt... hell yeah! :oP
4) Go back to college (damn... I dont waaanna)
5) make up some lame excuse not to go on a trip with my friend
6) Talk to those damn MHC clients that like to find problems but hate to pay... that goes for the Surpresse people too.
7) Work a little more on the Charlez page... thank goodness he expanded my deadline

Well, there's more but this is about it. Seven is such a magical, biblical, blablabla number isn't it??

Listening to: Badly Drawn Boy - Disillusion
Windows Skin: Copland (looks like an old mac hehe)

This is for you "baby"

Broken Words (Finger Eleven)

Your sweet little hands
Brush right past me
Sometimes you don't understand
Why you can't reach
I bite when I don't want to bend
How silent I can be
So she is silent too
She's the one who saw my words
Broken, Torn at the seams
And broken words were all she heard
Now she's walking away from me
Some never meant
And some meant well
The difference between us is so
Hard to tell
I was so shaken but now
All I see
Is everything she meant to me

Back to school and guess who I find... I really didn't expect this. Well, I did expect but I didn't want it, that's for sure. How awful is this, I looked at her and didn't even want to kiss her, I just felt this weird thing and decided I needed to talk to her... so we hugged this weird hug, kinda cold... and I told her how much I thought of her... and she still seems to be avoiding anything on the subject. I told her to call me, you know, normally.
Yeah right... I'm sure it's gonna be pretty normal when she calls.
If she's not willing to listen to me, to how fucked up it's been to me, well, I'll decide she doesn't wanna be my friend, therefore I don't want to talk to her at all.

Damn man. She's so insane. How can you dump someone that has everything in common with you and loves you and you at least love being with? dammit. She has to be crazy. I hope, I really hope, that she's happy with her decision. Cause you know, at least if it makes sense for her, it's something.
I just can't get over this. It's terrible. I just can't conform that I won't find someone like her again. Suddenly my world sucks once again...

Hehehe I just realized how funny my post about losing my virginity sounds, I guess it was funny to come in my page (especially to the new visitors) and see that first line.
PS: I'm not sorry about posting it, just think it's funny... and if anybody is wondering, no, I don't care at all that I only lost it at this age, I'm a firm believer that you should only do things in your life when you're ready for them. I never avoided sex, and I like to think that it never avoided me... it just came when it was supposed to come I guess. :o)

dammit. Today was first day at college, but I skipped it. Now all the rushing starts again... all the work... all the "this could be better!!! re-do it!"... all the boring people... at least I'm going to a new class now, that rocks big time.

Ok. I'm not a virgin anymore. Maybe you didn't know I was one, so hehe, I fooled you all. ;o)
I dont feel like writing details about who and how it was here, especially cause well, its something pretty intimate and well, I dont think anyone wants to hear the gory details of it... but anyway. It was good. And she was a nice girl too. We barely slept... I'm so tired.
And like, today I was going to have lunch with mom, it was kinda weird.
I'm not sure how I feel. I'm so happy cause all of this happened. But I'm a bit frustrated cause like, I don't think it was as good as it could've been, and like, I feel like it was my fault that it wasn't so good.
Dammit. Whatever. I'm a perfectionist. Either it's perfect or it sucks...

Listening to: The Devine - Pieces