I Absolutely Love Her.

A pretty tatto on her back, like a stylized fairie or something. Big beautiful brown eyes with a certain sincerity to them. Lips that look even better when framed by a smile of as much - or even more - honesty as her eyes. A kiss so calm and yet so deep, like a soft sunset shutting every eye and drawing every deep breath from within my tired soul.
What is infatuation?

Listening to: Taproot - I

New Muzak

So here's something I did, exclusively for you my dear readers. It'll be on the Downloads section later too... Some new songs I'm working on, maybe someone could comment and tell me how good they are so far? :o)
Belong [1,64mb] - this song is so ready. I only need a band now ;o)
Heart [~850k] - this one's just a chorus.
Go [1,84mb] - this one's almost complete.

Poem

I heard of a man
who says words so beautifully
that if he only speaks their name
women give themselves to him.

If I am dumb beside your body
while silence blossoms like tumors on our lips
it is because I hear a man climb stairs
and clear his throat outside our door.

-- Leonard Cohen

Boys On My Left Side

Manhood is of such angst. Manhood seems like an obligation more than a simple fact of luck. Manhood should be defined by having a penis and feeling attracted to the opposite sex. Yet, it seems that most men have to prove all day and all night that they're man, or else they'll be less of men.
Men don't understand women. My situation is worse, I don't understand either.
I don't see any "unbreakable man", but the closer I get to other guys, the more I notice that they seem to have the need and obligation to display themselves as unbreakable, insensitive and shielded from anything that hurts. "Cause boys don't cry"
***
My baby Yas and I have had a great conversation today, it's amazing how she gets surprised whenever I compliment her. It's as if she's never been told how beautiful and special she is. And indeed she is. May be just girl tactics I dunno.
Ingrid called me in tears cuz she got dumped. It always sucks ass when a girl calls up up crying, cause it really brings you down. But she'll be alright. She'll survive. I did! And Yas showed quite some jealousy for the fact that I was talking to Griddy, and that makes me soooooo flattered. I know, it's selfish, but I do. How sweet is that? A wonderful wonderful girl that I really like is jealous of me? Do I want anything more? Heck yeah... but oh boy does it feel good. One thing I feel strongly inside is I want this girl as my girlfriend. I dunno how right or feasible or good that is and I'll try not to let myself get carried by that. TRY I said.

Listening to: Tori Amos - Caught a Lite Sneeze

Brush your teeth before you sleep.

"Good thing i wasnt killed
I'm unlucky to be alive
Spared from everlasting peace
Left here to wither and connive"

The Devine - Victim

Victim

Two more days and then sleep! Whoa! It's like a miracle. And not unlike miracles, it might just not happen when you need it the most. Someone will probably call me at 8am on saturday and screw up my day. Or not.
Dude, there's actual homework to do now. I really DONT feel like doing any work, paid or not.

Listening to: Linkin Park - With You

The thing that should not be

- I confess... I slept through the first two periods. At home that is. Thus I was absent. Thus it's one less day for me to miss when the semester is almost over and I'm tired as hell. Heck, I'm so tired right now.
*whiplash*
- YOU'RE SOOO LAME MAN!!!! GIVE IT ALL UP AND GO LIVE IN THE FIELDS!!! YOU CISSY HIPPY!!!! yells the evil conscience, with a smile of mercy and sarcasm.
- hey you know I might just do that alright? Cuz those people seem pretty happy with their weed and their shitty shoes. At least they don't have to worry about all that they SHOULD be doiing.
- Yeah. By the way you should be doing your marketing homework, but you're a lazy bum. *whiplash*
- Arrrghhh!!! OK wait I'll just see this movie that dad said was real good and... *whiplash* Yaackkk! Ok I won't do anything then!

Hmm... comments

Sweet, got some comments for the page. What are you waiting for! comment stuff!!!! :oP
(PS IN PORTUGUESE: meus amiguinhos/as não se encabulem de escrever, não precisa ser em inglês se não quiser... só escrevam! valeu!)

Virgos Monday

"Not everyone is equipped to be a fifth Beatle. So it's remarkable how seamlessly Brett Hestla fits into Creed -- America's biggest rock band -- playing bass for the group on the road for the past few years with the same ease he displays as a popular producer for a growing stable of local bands." -- The Orlando Sentinel, on Virgos.. I've had the new Virgos song stuck on my head all day long. SWEET.... :oP I NEED A BETTER MP3!!! HEEELP!
As usual, monday starts up with lots of energy and bad weather. All day was hot as hell, then we got some heavy raining that stopped real quickly, giving the impression that tomorrow it's gonna be hell as well. Especially cause it's tuesday, and tuesdays tend to suck on my calendar especially.
I dunno if I ever mentioned this, actually I do know that I never did but it makes you look cool to talk like that, anyways, my good days of the week are sunday, wednesday and friday. Tuesdays and thursdays are usually crap. I know it's pure crap, since weekdays are just something estabilished, but I guess this bad luck of mine on those days is also something estabilished, even if by myself, and very deeprooted.
Well. I kinda didn't wanna talk about my love life right now because things are going ok, so I prefer not to think too much... but ok, ok, I'll just try to blog what I'm feeling and what's going on so that I don't block too much out...
Basically my weekend was real busy. I had two dates, with two people. Now, since this is an open blog and one of the two might read it, you can be sure that I preferred to be with only one person. I am sure of that. I wish I could be in some true, deep, solid relationship. But I realized that you don't get that for free, so I'm dating people, knowing people, and letting them know me so that someday we may have something like that.
So, back to it. First I went to the movies with three girls, one of which was a girl I dated until what, a week ago? Yeah that one from the "punt" post. One of the others was a Yas, a girl that I've been very much physically attracted since the first day I met her, but after I got to talk to her, I found out she was sooo interesting. A sweet girl, who shares some interests with me and seems to be honest as far as I've seen. That means a lot to me. Yas just broke up with her b/f. I know, that kinda smells like more trouble. Hell if I care! At least until she dumps my sorry ass cuz she doesn't want to get involved with anyone right now cuz blablabla.
Ok, we made out, it was great. Could've been better, wish it was only me and her there but it's ok. Then I had to go to this place for my "friend's" birthday. The "friend" - as I preferred to describe her to Yas -- is Rah, The one from the first time. I didn't wanna go to the club, but I decided if I should do something, I should wait until after her birthday. So I went, I made out with her, I brought her home and then you know the drill. Things were far from perfect this time, but at least it was all more simple and direct.

So basically, I decided I won't officially "dump" Rah, just call her less and not go out until things are clear. No, this is not my typical way of doing things, but I came to the conclusion that this case doesn't need this total opening from me, she's not real worried and I'm not either. And well, I'm liking Yas more and more each time we talk, I just have to hold my horses not to pour all of my problems on her.... she's younger and I don't think she would take it the right way.
Listening to: Default - Wasting my Time